Amazing Mum
Didn't sleep many nights, but
Always been there with a smile
The tanks, going before us,
Then we came, all the soldiers
I was one of the commanders of my unit
and I stand there on this mini tank
I see all the bombs start to operate on the tanks,
going in front of us.
my friends sitting inside, hearing all of it and
asking me what is it, I remember as I'm speaking,
three bullets just running top of my head
I go down and I say to my friends, alright they shooting.
They tell us, that we are ...
parachuters not scared from anything but I remember
myself twenty years old, I was scared. I was scared
We start going inside the houses of the refugee camp
Our unit was specialised in bombing, and we need to go
house by house and bomb a hole in the wall.
Cause we couldn't get in through the door,
because most of them was trapped with bomb.
On the first day, one of our friends from another unit
lost his eye.
I remember we were scared but we just did
what we had to do.
And we tried to catch all the terrorist.
Our commander of our unit left the unit about a few
months earlier to go back to his fiancĂ©
and then when he heard that there is this operation,
he decided to come back and join us.
That night, at around 5 - 6 PM
we are inside a house, I'm sitting here,
and there is a big window here where the commander
and another friend is standing, and suddenly we hear
[explosion]
He is falling to the ground
We got the vest, and our vest is getting
all the way till here, and the bullet
got straight into his heart.
One millimeter on top and apparently it was
a bullet from one of our unit because it was
so much mess inside the small refugee camp
they recognize him as an enemy,
he... he, gone. On the spot, you know.
We go into this house at around midnight,
and we bombing the wall.
I jump first and I see the dad of the family, and we,
We have to put a rifle to his head to make sure
he is not trying to hurt us.
His wife coming, holding a two-year-old beautiful baby
in her hand, a five-year-old I assume in the other hand
and they crying, of course, waking up in midnight,
seeing me standing there and holding
the rifle to the...
it was this moment, that... I look at her,
this little girl, with these tears, and look her
in the eyes and I don't know how to say that even,
but something really switched in me,
Wow! Look at that! Oh my goodness.
Tayo! Are you ready to go in the track?
We took off the rifle of course of the dad,
we understand that they just a really, um nice family
with no intention... and the dad looked at me
and he say...
'Why didn't you knock the door?'
'Why did you blow the wall?'
'I would have open it for you.'
And... we both just start laughing so hard,
from the bottom of our heart, I remember
this moment you know...
After that day I was with soo much things
on my mind, my commander, these beautiful man
I admire soo much and laughed with few hours ago,
that was the last time we laughed together.
I could not take out of my head this
look of two-year-old crying baby
All of this war for what?
This moment, of standing there with
"the enemy" and laughing, like
real laugh of the stomach between man to man
in the middle of a... of a vicious war,
its kind of brought me into my humanity big time
We can always choose,
This will be our home Tayo
There is always a choice, in our life,
like there is crazy circumstances where we
coming from in Israel, this is our reality,
there is no right or wrong because
people are suffering.
the easiest way for me was to go and say
Aaa... All the Arabs... or... they try to kill us
or you know, get all my hate for that place
we can always choose between fear or love
I created the Army of Love.
I say this will be my mission.
I know I can't change this world,
I can't come and talk to the sides and,
say 'Alright, let's stop it'
it's much deeper than that.
in our world, many people are waking up and
start feeling this is not right.
All the reality I learn, everything I learn,
this is just not... whatever my parents
teaching me, society teaches me,
this is just not resonates with who I am,
I was terrified to talk about my army story
for soo many years because I know
what people will say, and I know how the opinions
if someone is really dare to say something about
I built this website, a community, and I think
there is soo many leaders, and believers,
heart centered people, that feeling really
different but they don't really have
the right environment,
The Army of Love mission is to connect between
all of those people.
And I wanted to give a platform, a stage,
for these people to really realise their power
and allow themselves, to express themselves fully,
in a safe environment.
We've got the online platform, which will have
a lot of teachings, available information in
the world about how to really access
what we've got inside, and how to allow ourselves
to be who we really are.
Then we gonna do as well events.
Live events around the world, where people
can come and feel safe and create a movement
a different type of army...
and it comes with a lot of fears.
Leaving our home, leaving our jobs,
going on a truck, we are afraid,
we've got a lot of concerns,
but we are feeling such an excitement,
we're feeling such a new change,
... coming into our life.
Now when I see the kids, full of love,
and I think that's we all are, but I grow up
in a country, which is... I don't like to say that
but full of hate, because of the situation.
Coming to Australia was a huge eye-opener for me.
A country where people going around and say
'No worries mate' and coming from
the country of worries,
still, I've got friends from Lebanon, Iran, Iraq,
they are people that you know, we grow up
think they are our enemies
My mum saying that already from four-year-old
I used to ask her the weirdest question before
I go to sleep, which is almost the age of
my boy Tayo.
She says that I used to tell her that I don't
want to go to the army when I was four.
My mum, I think she didn't sleep for about
ten years you know, I go to the army, then
my other brother go to the army, and then
my younger brother go to the army, and...
now I'm a father, and I know, that I won't be
able to sleep if my boy go with a weapon,
and inside places where I've been.